+ 11/18/02 +
Today is your mommy and daddy's anniversary, Baby O.! Two years ago, we married and were already talking about when we would get to meet you. We knew we weren't in a complete hurry, but we also knew it wouldn't be long.

This weekend was a busy, busy, busy one. It didn't center around you like last weekend's shopping spree almost did. But you were oh-so involved. First, at the movie yesterday, you decided to see what it was like to actually kick my bladder. Now, I'm sure you've put pressure on it before, moving around. But these were kicks. I was sitting there, innocently watching the movie, when suddenly I felt this poke and desperate urge to pee. A split-second later, it stopped. Then again. You were kicking my bladder. I wasn't sure I'd know what that would feel like, but I was sure wrong! You didn't help me sleep at all, thanks again. Last night I got about 4 hours of sleep. :-( Plus, all that talk last week about BH contractions made me start paying attention to what's going on in there. I can feel my uterus contract sometimes. It's like, normal, and then suddenly my whole abdomen, from really low to under my ribs is hard as a rock. It doesn't last, and it doesn't hurt. It's quite strange, actually. Daddy's getting frustrated about not feeling you, which is what I was afraid of. It's actually a sore spot now, and I'm afraid to ever mention it. I didn't tell him about you on my bladder. He figures when it's really obvious, then he'll feel it, and until then he doesn't want to try. I feel really horrible about that, but I know it's frustrating. I just want him to be able to share in all this with me. He knows that, and he loves us. He'll feel you soon.

Today you are kicking me over and over in one new spot. I've had a little aching, especially when I lie down, that I can only think is somehow related to my ribs. My uterus isn't quite up there yet, but it's on its way, and everything else has already been pushed up there. Tomorrow is our Dr's appointment. This one has been 6 weeks in coming, which I'm not happy about. I'm going to make sure to make my next one early so if it's cancelled again I don't have to wait this long. It makes me nervous.